What is next?

I don't know where to start! That is the story of my life! No matter what the thing is at hand, I more often that not, just can't get started! It is incredibly frustrating to me. I want to make so many changes, accomplish so much and yet here I am... every day it seems..... just not knowing where to begin. I always try the making lists route, and make list after list, but still not much seems to get crossed off of them. I will continue on the list route, partly because I secretly hope one day it will take off, and partly because for some reason, it just feels satisfying to get it down on paper... and to be honest, at least one thing will usually get done, and even if it is a small thing at least it is something. I have rooms I want to change, junk I wanna get rid of, and a whole list of this I want to pick up in my life again. But to clearly begin, I feel I need to purge... purge junk outta my house and purge defeat outta my vocabulary.  I need to be a little more positive with myself. I am most often, my harshest critic as I am sure most of us are.  I have accomplished things here... my dining room was a huge project... and one to be proud of... but there were off shoots that were intended to go with it.... the playroom and my craft closet.... and of course, they didn't happen. But I should still be proud of what I did finish. It was the most entailed and biggest project I ever tackled. And rug shopping? Amazing that I could even choose a direction, ... of course with some assistance and encouragement from Kimi I found two rugs and they are hard at work cushioning my feet and Colton's tushy. I need to learn to trust myself..... no confidence at all.... at least not in decorating.  Lots of busyness in other areas doesn't make it any easier.. after all, we are kicking off a new program at church, and we have a wedding to help pull off.......I know all will get done, mostly because if I do one thing right, that is to surround myself with great people to work along side of!  So long story short, and to keep me accountable,  I hope to update you this week with at least one project that I have accomplished... big or small.. I don't care, just to be able to cross it off  my list would be great..... I will let you know how I did.... I hope with a great big smiley face here!! or maybe pics if it is a pic-worthy item! Wish me luck!!